Lost In Translation

Darkness.

Noisy.

Fluidity.

Safety.

Helplessness.

These few words all have to do with the state in which we first start our lives. Some are pleasant sounding while others seem rather frightening. We enter the world already having experienced so many thoughts, emotions, feelings, only to be thrust into completely uncharted territory where we take the meaning of these words with us in order to find new ones and adapt those into our lives and figure out what they mean exactly and how to use them. So day after day, year after year you become bigger, stronger, smarter...while each day you progress (hopefully towards something greater), the circle is still being drawn and is continually growing closer to a close. As you are waiting for everything to come full circle...somewhere in the midst of this waiting period you suddenly become lost in translation, wondering where you are and how you got there. You find yourself at a stalemate of sorts.

Stalemate
–noun
1.
Chess. A position of the pieces in which a player cannot move any piece except the king and cannot move the king without putting it in check.
2.
Any position or situation in which no action can be taken or progress made; deadlock


You go through life, day after day just doing your thing and it all builds up to a breaking point. Then one day while standing at a counter you realize that you're so burnt out and have breached that point of insanity and that 'it all' just simply doesn't matter anymore.


...Somehow, that makes you happy.


Realizing just how uneducated you are not just about life in general but about your own life, regardless of how long you've been in it, gives you a sudden outburst of hysterical laughter and though you are being shot funny looks from those around, you just simply don't care. Because you have found another part of yourself through losing it.


If anything, revision is always an option.